I'm waiting for my departing flight, but it doesn't seem to be showing...

I love theatre, and I'm glad I have the passion to pursue it.

When you're living in the makes of a crackhouse... it really boosts your sense of everything.

The only thing keeping my sane,is the cross hanging in my doorframe, the journal I've kept while here, and my phone calls with a really great friend.

Last night we had an amazingly violent night of thunderstorms, and to tell you the truth, I couldn't sleep because I was really that uncomfortable. I miss home. I can barely even recieve calls from family and friends because I don't know how long my reception will last. Although I could probably find someone in town with morse code, or the technique for smoke signals... i don't think I have the time to learn how.

Sorry for the random updates, its what I got.
Be good, smile, make a connection.

Coming to you Live from the middle of nowhere ...

Ok, so i didn't post like i said I would before I left... but I'm posting while I'm here, which I wasn't planning on doing . Here's what I can tell you...

I live in the paper street soap co. house from fight club... really.
I have learned to bather...with is a bath and shower combined.
I have a stove and a sink in my "bedroom", a gas stove.
I stay up as late as I can, so when I go to bed I pass right out.
I'm living on water and bagged cereal.
I have yet to find a place to do laundry.
I'm currently in the public library which has 7 computers... all from 1990
I'm ready to go home, and back to somewhere that doesn't still think Nixon is president.
The only thing keeping me here in my love for theatre, family guy dvd nights, and the frequent jam sessions that take place in the house.

Just wanted to say that I miss everyone back in the real world, and I hope to see you all real soon. really.

What is it you think I can do for you ? Be Honest and Ask Me.

So, this is my 2nd to the last post for quite sometime. Expect a bit more before I leave.

Good News... I saved a bunch of money by switching my car insurance, and the doctor didn't kill me.

Ok, Quick update.

Just wanted to let everyone know that surgery was successful. It took 4 hours instead of the 1, and was alot more detailed than expected. The doctor told my parents that the growth had enzymes that were about to eat away at a bone connected to my brain, but lucky the surgery was in time. This is coming from the same doctor that wanted to postpone surgery, and put me on more meds to see if that'd help. Good thing we all listened to Todd on this one. I'm making great progress, I'm eating and chewing solid foods, and walking around to keep me going. Look out world, you only kept me down for one day, I'm back and ready for action... well, almost.


This is a pic of me as a child. yes, thats really me.

Something to make me smile.

I'm about to leave for the hospital, but I wanted to post a picture. Good times, Good times.

I'm on the top platform (in case you couldn't tell)

"Average Hero Saves the day, but know one knows who he is"

Someone at UCF once told me why it is I'm so persistant, determined and focused. "Oh, I know why you do so much in the department, it's because you're new. Once you get to be where I am, you'll stop"

You know what I have to say to that...

Fuck You.

This is my career I'm working for not a grade. I strive to become successful which means I'll do what it takes to achieve greatness. I don't get a second chance at this life, so why should I sit back and wait... I won't.

Whew, on to the good things.

I've been hired to be one of the brothers in the production of Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat in Missouri with the City of Maples Repetory Theatre. I'll be there from May 24-July 18 (which happens to be my 22nd birthday) and then I'll be back in florida to get ready for the fall semester.

Surgery is Thursday, and I'm ready for it. In, Out and Cured... right? Damn right.

Good things come to those who pursue.

White boys can't jump? I disagree.

It's about time I post an awesome pic.



Hell Yeah.

Bond...Jermiah Bond. Nope, Doesn't have the same touch.

Why do I always look so serious when I take pictures?
I'm in training to be a secret agent... or not.

Leave me some comments...
I'm on myspace also, www.myspace.com/theaveragehero

Blast from my own Past. Part I

I wrote this when I was 17. It's shocking.

When you wake in the morning, what thought crosses your mind? Is it the burning question of acceptance, well to me, it is. Not accpetance in society, but to someone even more important, myself.


So i ask myself, and you should also, who am I, and why?

It's funny, in this life we search for new and daring adventures, to enhance our lives, yet we forget to realize that what we've been doing daily is constant and isn't new. The only thing in the enitre world that will always stay the same is change. We use the word like one day we will wake up and we realize that everything we're used has dissapeared and we will soon be forced to fen for ourselves. I'm assuming that not only I feel this way, this is the reason people live with there parents after high school, not to mooch or live off them, but yet that we are scared that one day we will wake up, and nothin will make sense. So now i've come to the point in my life where i must decide, do i really know myself, or have I not only been fooling everyone else but also myself. We spend all our lives digging a pit of despair, and trying to fill that imagianry hole, and for what reason, to reassure ourselves, or make someone feel more confident in you ? Everyones got a special place they like to run and hide, a sanctuary the can express there deepest in. Mine is in the worst place of all within myself, and i need to change it, but its constant and will always stay the same.




So i ask myself, and you should also, where am I, and why am I there, and where will I be?

Mission Accomplished - Part I

Sorry I haven't written in a while but i've been busy with finals, and getting ready to move back home.

Finals are over.

I had my BFA review. I heard lots of great things. I have excellent Leadership and the Attitude to go with it. My professors are glad to have me in class. Fucking Rad.

The only criticism I recieved is that I need to work on taking direction better. Done. I have all summer to work on that, and I will.

I have the theatre banquet on friday evenin' and I'm excited to hang out with my kinda people. This will be the last time I see them until the fall semester. things will be a bit different then. Promise.

Saturday I'm working tech at the Wyndham Orland Resort on I-drive. I applied for the chance to work with some big people around town on this FAME banquet, and I got in. It's going to be quite an experience, it's load-in, set-up, rehearse, run show, strike and load-out all in the same day. Holy Poop... This should be fun.

I started 2005 with the theme for "living in the now" and I think i've surpassed that. I've lived in the now, and even more.

I've become a better person day by day. I've made somethings better with people, because conflict isn't healthy. I'm not perfect and I don't strive to be something I'm not... but I need to be the best Todd Justin Davis I can be.

On that note, the theme for the rest of the year is..
Take a chance... be yourself... make a connection.

If I wasn't such a wuss, I'd do what I wrote...

So, I've been writing a bit lately, and this was born from a conversation I had the evening before. It's a tragiclove lyric, and I'm not sure where it came from. It's so bittersweet in my opinion, and hopefully some people can relate.

"I've decided I'm going to drop out of college and just look for shit on the beach with a metal detector... I could wake up in a sleeping bag on the shore and have no care in the world, I mean I'll probably never leave your side, but atleast I'll always have that choice"

Live by these fucking words...

There are no
bad experiences.

Sometimes we will make mistakes.

Occasionally, we will achieve greatness.

The only requirement is that we
live our life the way we want.

Something significant is missing in my life and I've not been able to place it.
But i'm living my life the way I want.
Guess thats the price for making my own decisions.

I'm not really nervous I'm in what I'd like to call, Negitive Anticipation.

Live on Pay-Per-View

Thursday. Thursday. Thursday.

May 19th.

I've never been a man of religion, but with each passing day, I find myself exploring the possiblities.

What a moment, huh ?

It's only when we're in need we look above, it's not when we have too much do we ask.

"You're acting like a first year fuckin' thief, I'm acting like a fucking professional"

In this hectic world I'm trying to be cool with these things, 'cause I need to be cool.

I will always have a smile on my face.


In this world, we have the Good, the Bad, and the Ugly.
Which one are you ?

One mans trash, is another mans treasure.

That was my today.

I had the trash, but i didn't recieve any treasure.

Any questions ask away.

I've stopped actually writing real paragraphs and complete thoughts lately... oops.




Tomorrow I'll find out about the severity of the operation, and when i'm going into the hospital.

I love my friends for looking out for me. Thank you, I'd do the same.

..."who'd have thought bad news would be comforting"...

The doctors called.

I have a cyst on my ear drum. I have this identical thing when I was 12. Who'd have thought that 10 years later it'd come back to say hi.


I know whats wrong, but that doesn't make it any easier...

...It's safe to say, I'm scared.

...the story so far..

Before you continue on, please take my writing for what its worth. For me its alot, for others it may not be the same. I don't like using names in my posts, and i will use them in this post when i feel its needed. I'm under the assumption that those concerned can figure it out, if they aren't mentioned.

I've spent a significant portion of my life trying to please others, and with the thoughts that've been running thru my mind... that has ended. I'm tired of sacrificing my hapiness for others just to make things okay. Things were not okay. The past is the past, in relationships. Do Not read into things. A simple hello, is 99.9% of the time, just what it is... a simple hello. The other .1%... its not what you think it is. TRUST ME. On that note, the past is exacatly what it is, it has vanished and I will respect that.

I strive for honesty from others, and it seems that I'm looking for the wrong thing. My expectations for the world is too high, and I will probably never change that. My expectations for myself, however are not going to change. I require alot of myself probably more than anyone I know, and I can thank my father for that. My dad has wasted his entire life doing nothing, having dreams and never pursuing them and always saying, "one day." My dad's day, has sadly but more importantly past him by. I use the phrase "one day," but I've been busting my ass for my dream and not taking a break. Family and friends have taken back seats to my aspirations, and all I can say is Thank You. My family and my real friends have been very understanding and they know that I've not forgotten about them. This is a look back. Change is being made, a whole lot of it...a re-assestment of my life if you'd like to call it that.

I saw a shirt today while at the gym, and i snickered at it. The shirt read "To be honest, I'm a liar." Ponder that one. I'm an actor, but call it whatever you'd like, but the basic point is: I lie for a living. Really.

I'm honest with those I trust, and this may surprise many of you, but its only a few.

I hate using names... but here it goes... (I'm going to regret this)

Josh, I trust you like family...to me you are family. We've had some goodtimes, and you're the brother I didn't have the fortune of growing up with. Thank you Sir, for being a friend. I wish we got a chance to spend more time wreaking havoc, but thats the downfall of hanging out with people in theatre.

Tyler, You are amazing. You're such a strong person in even the worst situations, and even when you had more important things going on, you'd still check up on me. It means alot. Thank you.

Sarah & Jeff, You both have been co-workers and friends, but more importantly you've allowed me to talk and be open. Much Thanks.

Courtney & Dolline, You've both seen different sides of me and to be honest I don't know how truthful i was either one of you. I wasn't truthful to myself, so it was near impossible for me to be with you. I was faithful and loyal as a boyfriend, but as me, Todd... I wasn't being fair. To be honest, you both for certain things about yourself thru me, but I didn't find anything in myself. Thats why I've had such a hard time settling down, and being ok with down time. My passion for theatre, and doing for others has always been important, and it wasn't just an excuse. I'm an actor, and you both were unaware of the sacrifices I am, and willing to go thru to make my dream, ambition, and passion a success.

I use this site to write the things I can't say in person. It seems that some people I know have done the same thing, and I know who they are... I've read things I didn't want to admit,and I've seen things I probably shouldn't have. The thing is though and I believe it was written because I needed to see it. And really, and I'm okay with that. It would have been nicer if people would've just told me that, but I'm a pretty strong person and I can't even allow myself to do that. Which is why the reason I'm writing this. From now on, be upfornt. If you already are, continue to do so. Everyone.

Sorry if this has upset anyone, but if you hurry now there's a sale on kleenex at Publix.

"this is your life, and it's ending one second at a time"

...and from the mist, a prophet appeared...

Honesty from others is always welcomed...


...soon I'll have the courage to type out the world's largest post.


People will be offended, and I may become an asshole to many, but that's a chance I'm going to take.

Stay Tuned, Seriously... This should not be missed.

Sorry. (Just saying it in advance)

If this was a childhood game...

If being in a relationship was like playing kickball as a kid, there's only thing i want...

...To be picked first.