Sometimes getting there, is getting by...and sometimes its more than enough.

I'm not one for writing long drawn out blogs, but this will be one...so be prepared.



Life is amazing.



I wish I saw my family more, I miss mom and my sister, but you know what they say..absence makes the heart grow fonder, and when referring to family I couldn't agree more. I hate that I'm busy, because of theatre. I'm an actor yes, but I'm Todd (a human being) first and foremost. I hate it when people say that when you're an actor, you are an actor. Bullshit.

I realized after a near nervous breakdown last month, a few things. One...I'm scared of being alone in a fast paced world. Two...I want a family of my own more than anything in the world. Three...I am talented, and a hell of a guy...but i'm an not untouchable.

Scapin is going great, I've had a few f-ups but nothing significant enough to ruin a show. I saw Josh and Amber after the show and they were but reassuring faces, in a confusing crowd. They both loved the show, and I'm glad. I realized that some people will be your friends for what you have, don't have, and what you can give them. Josh is my friend because. Thats as best as I can describe it. He's an older brother, a friend, and as he says .."his heterosexual lifemate"

The more I'm thrown into situations I'm unfamilar with, I learn. I'm different now. I'm aware of things.

The ones around me , know me best... Here's what they think:

You are the personification of "saving grace." You take on the world one smile at a time. You have more ambition than I could ever imagine being in one person. Sometimes I think you worry too much about other people and their opinions, and not enough about what's best for you.

You have a quiet confidence. Your original, caring, understanding, honest, personable, animated... and clever.

This has been an odd post, not really sure why that is. I hate writing about myself, but those around me tell me I need to start including me in my life. This is my first attempt at doing so.

I'm ending with a song lyric...

It’s getting late I hesitate to even try now,
but it’s worth it even if I’m tired tomorrow