review ? yes sir, may i have another.

Margo Veil: An Entertainment
By Len Jenkins
Directed by David Lee
UCF Black Box Theater, Orlando, FL

Somewhere between Surrealism and the Avant-Garde lies the story of Margo Veil (Sara Barnes), a young actress on the rise. Fleeing rural Iowa she makes New York and grabs the lead in a play that closes in a day. In some respects, this is a career, but the press is harsh and some people just don’t take that well. Her agent (Todd Davis) offers here a gig escorting a corpse back to the Midwest which solves two problems - it puts cash in hand, and gets her out of the big city. The trip goes well enough, although she descends into and increasingly nightmarish world and accidentally murders The fat Man in the Bad Suit (Davis again - he really nails the role) Fleeing the police, she picks up a boyfriend of sorts (Ben Hope), and spends the rest of the show jumping into different bodies in a weird machine stashed in a truck stop massage parlor. Sex and race matter not, but after awhile the itching becomes unbearable, and she returns to her original "shell", only slightly the worse for the journey.

And that's about as coherent as this gets. A mind boggling number of people flow on and off stage, all perfectly choreographed to a secret agenda controlled by director Lee. One is tempted to call the whole experience cubist, with shards of image glinting off the theater smoke and minimal stage surrounded by fun house mirrors and surmounted by a toy train. Margo seems swept along by events, never able to modulate them or explain what they mean or why she's embroiled in them. Dozens of current and dated cultural references fly by, aided by a helpful links page in the program. We don’t have internet access on stage, but I looked up ziggurats and obelisks and steno pool and found myself broadened. This singing is good (if a bit gospel), the timing sharp and crisp, and the whole event wonderfully cryptic, yet completely entertaining.

For more information on UCF Conservatory Theatre, visit www.theatre.ucf.edu

cypher it, and see what happens..

words.
words can't even do this justice.
the feelings i experience.
envy, jealousy, disappointment.
i feel like the high tide of the ocean.
each day, the same routine.
in and out. in and out.
i bring change, and wash it away.
i need to embrace, but not sure what to.
i look at the things you say.
each word you speak slowly remains on me.
i want so badly to wipe them away.
but they linger longer than i want them to.
i wash them off, towel. repeat.
repeat.
constant cycle.
this time, i don't need to towel off anymore.
they're gone.
it's me left at the heart of it.
the core.
i feel like clark kent into a phonebooth, always emerging as someone else.
this time, i emerged as me.

it's been a long, long time...

sorry, i've been really busy.

here's something that'll make it worth while.

100 more honest things about me.

1- i fall in love faster than i drive
2- my life is seemingly ridiculous, but very real... someone knows what that means
3- at heart, i'm a kid who just wants to play.
4- my sister will soon be in remission, and onto radiation.
5- i miss my mom, and i hate that she struggles to allow me to dream.
6- i miss my sister, and its painful to see her so strong, and weak at the same time.
7- i don't tell my mom and sister i love them. enough.
8- I regret that its so hard for me to say that word love, even to family.
9- I wonder if theres anyone else like me out there ?
10- i'm a great boyfriend.
11- i'm a good friend.
12- ...but a horrible best friend.
13- i experience jealousy
14- i'm a better actor then people give me credit for.
15- i'm modest by nature.
16- i have a hard try accepting a compliement.
17- i would marry the girl that asks me to talk about nothing.
18- 18 is my lucky number, and it means more to me than people know.
19- i don't like when people judge me, before giving me a chance.
20- i don't know of anyone who does, but we do it.
21- i have broken my hearts then i'm probably aware of.
22- i've had my heart broken.
23- i've always wanted to play shortstop for the los angeles dodgers.
24- i want to find someone who knows what my schedule is like.
25- jerry maguire makes me cry.
26- while on stage yesterday (10-15) i broke down and started crying. my character requires emotion but i gave it my all.
27- writing another 100 of these, isn't that easy.
28- i'm addicted to the spill canvas cd.
29- self conclusion is an amazing song, and i dare you to prove me wrong.
30- i have never cheated on a gf.
31- i would never cheat on any girl.
32- my mom sent me an email the other day that brightened my day.
33- in the email she wrote " i'm proud of the man you've become"
34- sometimes an email can mean the world to someone,it did for me.
35- i have a photo of my mom, sis, and i that i look at all the time.
36- i've never been a fan of the beach, but recently i've wanted to escape to it.
37- i still have a fear of drowning... and i've realzied its not just in water.
38- i want to be remembered as someone important.
39- i don't think i want the responsiblity.
40- i need them though, or its meaningless.
41- i have intimate eyes, that i want someone else to recognize.
42- i'm such a hopeless romantic, that i want to see others happy.
43- i've had a long running joke, that if you can't take a girl to dennys, you cant take her home.
44- i tried it once, but she wouldnt go.
45- we never went out again.
46- i read my horoscope hoping it will make no sense at all.
47- everytime i read it, it does make sense. perfect sense.
48- i save everything of value.
49- meaningful value, not money.
50- i want my ride pimped by xzibit.
51- i want people to tell me i was in their dream.
52- i want to coach little league when i'm an adult.
53- i want to recieve a card that says worlds greatest dad, and for my family to mean it.
54- yes i know, i have a few years before i get anywhere close to that.
55- i'm very picky about who i date.
56- i don't have sex because i choose not to.
57- just because i'm a virgin, doesn't mean i'm dead.
58- if the above doesn't make sense, think a little bit harder.
59- no pun intended.
60- ambition is something i sweat.
61- i bleed pride.
62- i bite my lip all the time.
63- i use to speak before thinking.
64- after removing my foot from my mouth, i've changed that.
65- i hate olives.
66- i hate tomatoes.
67- i love brock-o-lee.
68- i've started a gang.
69- i've adapted this gang into a play.
70- the play is entitled, "scooters"
71- we're a good gang though, we save people.
72- we're kinda like crime fighters on scooters.
73- i would give $3.75 to be in a band again.
74- i've started writing acoustic music again.
75- it makes me smile knowning i'm being creative.
76- i could never have a practical career.
77- everyday i'm thankful, that i'm doing something i love. perform, theatre.
78- i'm more than thankful, i'm fortunate.
79- i miss the people i met in missouri.
80- the movie unbreakable is amazing.
81- i love based on a true story movies.
82- those are: Rudy, remember the titans, flicks like that.
83- the cartoon american dad, is too much of a knock off from family guy.
84- i play guitar when i'm down.
85- others tell me i'm something special, and i disagree.
86- i love the lyrics of fall out boy.
87- i buy cd's when i don't even have the money to buy food.
88- i value music as if it's the holy grail.
89- if it wasn't for music, it'd have gone crazy.
90- sarcasm is a gift, not something you learn.
91-i can't believe i'm almost done with another 100 things. i'm proud.
92- my dad has starting listening to death cab for cutie. i haven't decided if thats a good thing or not.
93- i'm so confident, that i think it sometimes pushes people away.
94- josh and tyler are family to me.
95- josh is the brother i've always wanted. tyler is the little sister i can protect.
96- i hang out with people older than me. not sure why, but i think it's got something to do with my being bald.
97- i don't spell check often, because i type what means something to me.
98- i want to be ok with my physicallity.
99-my next tattoo will say "always afraid but never emabarssed"
100- if you know nothing about me, know this. all you have to do is ask. .. so, when are you going to ask me ?
101- there. that's me.

Drumroll Please.... and now, the news

In no particular order...

-Moved out to a new apartment with Oscar and Kelly... Awesome.
-I got CAST in Margo Veil with a total of 10 characters to play, and it's being Directed by DAVID LEE! How Rad ?
-I have an amazing gf Samantha Brown, who is great to me, and is also cast in a show this semester, "as bees in honey drown" ... it's nice to date an actress.
-I got offered a job, which I accpeted to be a student leader/project head in the scene shop so that feels good to be needed.
Sorry I haven't posted in a while it's really hard to find the time to write when i have 1,000 things to do and this is 1,001.

Be good, and as always... smile.

I need a job... really really bad.

I need a job, and if anyone knows of somewhere thats hiring, or works someone that is short staffed, please let me know.

Thank You,

Todd.

No News is Bad News

Just got back from the doctors, and my ear is healing alot better than he expected. He was surprised at how well I'm doing. Awesome. Sorry for the lack of interesting posts, but I'm trying ... More to come later.

Guess what time it is?

Oh YEAHHH!

It's my birfday!

*side note: I started to color this on my own in paint, but never took the time to finish*

Is it time already?

22nd Birthday.

Monday Night.

8-ish

Cafe Tu Tu Tango.

Food and Drinks.

Please come out and have a goodtime. If I haven't seen you in a while and you get this... I'd love to see you there. be good all.

memories... a good past.

rocky comes avile.

Tammy, Tyler, Josh and myself.

100 Honest Things

1. My Full name is Todd Justin Davis
2. Those close to me call me TJ though.
3. I have a fear of drowning.
4. My sister has cancer and scares me to death.
5. I would take my sisters place any day, so that she wouldn't have to feel any pain.
6. I've always thought I was superman, and lately I've realized I'm not.
7. Ever since my trip to Missouri I've grown up alot.
8. I rarely drink beer. rarely.
9. I regret doing somethings when I was younger but I wouldn't take them back. They've made me.
10. I trust people easily, since I'm honest.
11. I've had trouble being myself in the past, but that no longer is a problem.
12. I do this thing called "premeditated stupidity"
13. I try to save people, but in-turn I need some assistance.
14. When I find a cologne I like, I stick with it.
15. I need change, but haven't had the inspiration to do it.
16. I listen to a few cd's on a regular basis.
17. I own alot of cd's... couple hundred or so.
18. I keep a select few cd's near by for immediate listening.
19. I can't stop listening to Relient K lately.
20. I love Death Cab for Cutie.
21. My first favorite band was Third Eye Blind.
22. I've been playing the guitar since I was a senior in high school.
23. I'm also a drummer, and according to my family I'm better at it than guitar.
24. I've been in four different bands.
25. I miss my first band that I formed called Harpers Failures.
26. I'm obsessed with the Back to the Future movies.
27. I own to crosses, both identical to each other.
28. I buy dupilcates of cd's I already have because I listen to them so much.
29. If I wasn't an Actor, I'd want to teach.
30. I look up to my mom more than anyone in the world.
31. I look to my dad, so I won't become what he has.
32. I have more ambition than most people will see in a lifetime.
33. I challenge myself so that I can fail.
34. I fail so I can learn.
35. I learn because I strive to be great.
36. I would give up my career to have a family.
37. Although my last name is Davis, I want to take my moms maiden name to make my poppy proud.
38. I hold some of my close friends in my heart, and some of my family I know nothing about.
39. My aunt and grandmother have no idea how old I am.
40. I have 2 tats.
41. One is a star that symbolizes imperfection.
42. The other is plain and simple... family.
43. I regret where I had the tats done at on my body, but i wouldn't ever remove them .
44. My favorite number is 18.
45. My softball jersey number is also 18.
46. My dad wears a necklace that I want, thats the hebrew symbol for life.
47. That symbol contains the number 18.
48. The 18th of July is my birthday.
49. I love white chocolate.
50. I don't like nuts.
51. I don't drink milk.
52. I don't like cheese.
53. I'm not lactose intolerant.
54. I was born 3 months premature.
55. I weighed 3 lbs. 5oz.
56. I've had surgery on my ears 8 times.
57. I fear that one day I'll be deaf.
58. I need a good cry.
59. It makes me sad that my mom is falling apart.
60. It makes me angry that all i can do is watch.
61. I've met someone who makes me smile.
62. She laughs when she finds something funny, not just because I tried to be.
63. I've worn my salvation braclet every since I was given it.
64. I say grace at meal quietly, because when it comes to religion I'm shy.
65. I've never been arrested.
66. I've never gotten a speeding ticket.
67. I was never suspended in high school.
68. I was suspended from riding the bus though. funny story.
69. I love to play darts.
70. I'm not very good at playing pool.
71. I like to know that people care.
72. I like recieving gifts, but i'd rather have time with people.. its priceless.
73. I shave my head almost everyday.
74. I fear that one day I'll let my family down... and that can't happen.
75. I write lyrics on a regualr basis.
76. I rarley write for me.
77. I write to make others feel better, and when i read it...I can't relate.
78. I'm a hopeless romantic.
79. I'm Todd first and foremost, and an actor second.
80. I still cry when I see a certain Goofy cartoon.
81. I dig reservoir dogs, alot.
82. I have reservoir dogs action figures, and 2 posters.
83. I play softball, co-ed and mens.
84. I pitch, play first, and anywhere else on the field.
85. I've hit several homeruns, the longest was 335 ft.
86. I miss Josh and Tyler alot.
87. I've yet to turn down a single role I've been offered.
88. I Hope that I will never have to.
89. I believe a kiss can tell a story.
90. I didn't have my first kiss til I was 16, and it was from a dare.
91. I sometimes use a stage name, Steve Titus.
92. I will never join a frat.
93. I people watch, and evesdrop to create characters.
94. I wear sandals as often as possible.
95. I always wear an undershirt, always.
96. I'm a boxers man, but i do own a few boxer briefs.
97. I consider myself an average hero, but i don't know if I've ever saved anyone.
98. I look for orions belt everytime I look at the stars.
99. I've done 5 shows, 3 films, print work, and wrote a screen play in less then a year.
100. I'm proud of who i am... confident, strong, and i love who it is I am.

I'm waiting for my departing flight, but it doesn't seem to be showing...

I love theatre, and I'm glad I have the passion to pursue it.

When you're living in the makes of a crackhouse... it really boosts your sense of everything.

The only thing keeping my sane,is the cross hanging in my doorframe, the journal I've kept while here, and my phone calls with a really great friend.

Last night we had an amazingly violent night of thunderstorms, and to tell you the truth, I couldn't sleep because I was really that uncomfortable. I miss home. I can barely even recieve calls from family and friends because I don't know how long my reception will last. Although I could probably find someone in town with morse code, or the technique for smoke signals... i don't think I have the time to learn how.

Sorry for the random updates, its what I got.
Be good, smile, make a connection.

Coming to you Live from the middle of nowhere ...

Ok, so i didn't post like i said I would before I left... but I'm posting while I'm here, which I wasn't planning on doing . Here's what I can tell you...

I live in the paper street soap co. house from fight club... really.
I have learned to bather...with is a bath and shower combined.
I have a stove and a sink in my "bedroom", a gas stove.
I stay up as late as I can, so when I go to bed I pass right out.
I'm living on water and bagged cereal.
I have yet to find a place to do laundry.
I'm currently in the public library which has 7 computers... all from 1990
I'm ready to go home, and back to somewhere that doesn't still think Nixon is president.
The only thing keeping me here in my love for theatre, family guy dvd nights, and the frequent jam sessions that take place in the house.

Just wanted to say that I miss everyone back in the real world, and I hope to see you all real soon. really.

What is it you think I can do for you ? Be Honest and Ask Me.

So, this is my 2nd to the last post for quite sometime. Expect a bit more before I leave.

Good News... I saved a bunch of money by switching my car insurance, and the doctor didn't kill me.

Ok, Quick update.

Just wanted to let everyone know that surgery was successful. It took 4 hours instead of the 1, and was alot more detailed than expected. The doctor told my parents that the growth had enzymes that were about to eat away at a bone connected to my brain, but lucky the surgery was in time. This is coming from the same doctor that wanted to postpone surgery, and put me on more meds to see if that'd help. Good thing we all listened to Todd on this one. I'm making great progress, I'm eating and chewing solid foods, and walking around to keep me going. Look out world, you only kept me down for one day, I'm back and ready for action... well, almost.


This is a pic of me as a child. yes, thats really me.

Something to make me smile.

I'm about to leave for the hospital, but I wanted to post a picture. Good times, Good times.

I'm on the top platform (in case you couldn't tell)

"Average Hero Saves the day, but know one knows who he is"

Someone at UCF once told me why it is I'm so persistant, determined and focused. "Oh, I know why you do so much in the department, it's because you're new. Once you get to be where I am, you'll stop"

You know what I have to say to that...

Fuck You.

This is my career I'm working for not a grade. I strive to become successful which means I'll do what it takes to achieve greatness. I don't get a second chance at this life, so why should I sit back and wait... I won't.

Whew, on to the good things.

I've been hired to be one of the brothers in the production of Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat in Missouri with the City of Maples Repetory Theatre. I'll be there from May 24-July 18 (which happens to be my 22nd birthday) and then I'll be back in florida to get ready for the fall semester.

Surgery is Thursday, and I'm ready for it. In, Out and Cured... right? Damn right.

Good things come to those who pursue.

White boys can't jump? I disagree.

It's about time I post an awesome pic.



Hell Yeah.

Bond...Jermiah Bond. Nope, Doesn't have the same touch.

Why do I always look so serious when I take pictures?
I'm in training to be a secret agent... or not.

Leave me some comments...
I'm on myspace also, www.myspace.com/theaveragehero

Blast from my own Past. Part I

I wrote this when I was 17. It's shocking.

When you wake in the morning, what thought crosses your mind? Is it the burning question of acceptance, well to me, it is. Not accpetance in society, but to someone even more important, myself.


So i ask myself, and you should also, who am I, and why?

It's funny, in this life we search for new and daring adventures, to enhance our lives, yet we forget to realize that what we've been doing daily is constant and isn't new. The only thing in the enitre world that will always stay the same is change. We use the word like one day we will wake up and we realize that everything we're used has dissapeared and we will soon be forced to fen for ourselves. I'm assuming that not only I feel this way, this is the reason people live with there parents after high school, not to mooch or live off them, but yet that we are scared that one day we will wake up, and nothin will make sense. So now i've come to the point in my life where i must decide, do i really know myself, or have I not only been fooling everyone else but also myself. We spend all our lives digging a pit of despair, and trying to fill that imagianry hole, and for what reason, to reassure ourselves, or make someone feel more confident in you ? Everyones got a special place they like to run and hide, a sanctuary the can express there deepest in. Mine is in the worst place of all within myself, and i need to change it, but its constant and will always stay the same.




So i ask myself, and you should also, where am I, and why am I there, and where will I be?