My jesus is..."Tyler Durden"

I have to say things like the title of my post just to put a simple smile on my face. i'm complex, frigthened and just plain sad.

I need to cry.
I need a good cry.
I need to just sit and let it out.
Will I though?

Pause - Single imaginary tear runs down my face - Pause

Nope.

Of course I won't why would i allow myself to show emotion. Ha. Emotion...Emotions for the birds, I'm not sap. Oh, how I'd like to be. I'm worse than a middle aged woman after a divorce. Bitter and angry with myself. I've only got a few days until the new year kicks in... and the words "new" and "year" have taken on a new life. Be my witness and I'll be your friend.